Briefly, on the Tao
A quote in my morning coffee books told me that the further I search the less I know, so I went and checked the Chinese, found it was not quite Lao Tzu, and spent the rest of the day proving its point.
🌀 Metaspace
Reflections on the journey itself — the why, the how, the code of life
Writings
10 writings
Presenting Vastitas Omniparens
A twenty-year side quest to name everything, and the loot was already sitting in a Roman poem the whole time.
Who I Am Today: A Recovery Progress Report
Why I write, why I need systematic frameworks for basic human functions, and what recovery from narcissism and codependency actually looks like in practice.
The Paradox of Modernity: Progress Without Peace
We are living in the most advanced moment in human history. And yet, we are also arguably the most confused, alienated, addicted, manipulated, and emotionally starved generation ever to exist. This is the paradox I cannot stop thinking about.
On cooking… on everything… and foundations!
How learning cooking foundations—heat, ingredients, technique—taught me that foundations change everything else in life.
Briefly on Empathy as a Double-Edged Sword
Discussion of empathy's challenges, including how sensitivity to suffering can lead to overwhelm. Explores the tension between compassion and self-preservation.
My Favorite Symbols of Power
A reflection on the symbols—mythic, fictional, and personal—that remind me of resilience, willpower, and transformation. These are the icons I'd etch into my skin if I ever choose to.
Embracing the Spiritual Abyss: An Atheist's Search for Meaning
Exploration of atheism and secular humanism in the search for meaning. Examines the tension between rationality and emotional longing for spiritual connection.
Note to Self: To Be or What Not to Be
A reminder that I become what I practice: negativity, resentment, and hate are choices I don't have to make.
Things I have learned this week regarding a 4-year old’s long curly hair
One does not brush curly hair because it becomes Mufasa-like. I tried different brush styles before I noticed this.
Related writings
23 writings
Writings that touch on Metaspace as a secondary topic.
Forging the 'Stronghand' Terminal — September 2026 Update
Sixteen months after building an elaborate Windows terminal, almost none of it is left. What sixteen months of actual usage revealed about this machine, and the small setup that survived.
What Phrases Did Your Dad Install On You?
I still hear the phrase my father gave me, and I do not know what my own phrase is doing to my kids.
Happiness Is Moments
A reflection on happiness as moments rather than a permanent state: appreciation, rest, morning coffee, and a gratitude meditation at the end of the day.
The Joy of Building My Own Digital Sandbox — April 2026 Update
Eight months, 550 commits, 26 new posts, and a full transformation of how I build this site — with AI pair-programming, spec-driven workflows, and the same stubborn love for artisanal code.
Rolling Back Main (And Why You Shouldn't Have to)
Practical guide for solo developers who need to undo bad commits on main, followed by an honest reflection on why it happened and how to avoid it when vibecoding with AI tools.
The Feeling Is Not the Problem
Feelings are not instructions—they are information. On integration as the third option between suppression and indulgence, and why the space between feeling and action is where character lives.
The Prometheus Problem
An examination of how AI companies position themselves as modern Prometheus while deploying systems implicated in teenager deaths, externalizing consequences, and operating as black boxes in critical infrastructure. This is not about future superintelligence, it's about what's happening right now.
On Testing Relationships (Not Ok!!!)
Years of testing people without calling it that—playing dumb, going distant, poking, provoking. Making connection into a test is not ok.
November 6, 2025 — Season of Becoming
A line in the sand. Moving from performing growth to living it, from articulation to embodiment, from insight to integration.
Empathy as a Shield
How empathy serves as protective armor against judgment, bias, and emotional spirals.
The Joy of Building My Own Digital Sandbox
Why I spend hundreds of hours building a custom blog when perfectly good solutions exist. Because this digital art project—code and content together—is how I view the world.
I Became What I Used to Mock
When an AI mirror shows you who you've become - a raw reflection on transformation, humility, and the unconscious arrogance of growth
What Are We Even Calling Democracy Anymore?
A raw reflection on the state of democracy, the gap between rhetoric and reality, and the need for genuine systemic change.
Did the Illuminati Try to Recruit Me?
Someone slid into my Bluesky DMs claiming I was chosen. I answered like a god. Here's what really went down.
What Happens When You Leave the Algorithm Behind
Leaving Meta. Reclaiming time, clarity, and creativity.
You are Joking, Right?
Catching myself dismissing someone's feelings with "you are joking, right?" and what that pattern has cost.
If Your Politics Obsess Over Control, You're Not Well
Analysis of how fear and trauma manifest in control-based political ideologies. Explores the relationship between personal insecurity and authoritarian policy positions.
On the application of empathy and compassion
How learning empathy and compassion—first for myself, then for others—changed how I handle conflict and stop people-pleasing.
Brief Notes on Finding Serenity in Self-Control
Reflection on self-control as a path to serenity. Explores the balance between natural desires and conscious restraint in the context of personal values.
Conquering Imposter Syndrome with Evidence-Based Journaling
Method for managing imposter syndrome through structured self-reflection. Shows how documenting professional achievements can build authentic confidence.
Learning is a Construction of the Self
Reflections on humility, personal growth, and the quiet lessons hidden in relationships, silence, and life's daily rituals.
The Definition and Practice of My Core Values Make Me Free
Only after defining my core values was I able to understand my morality and how truthful I was with myself.
Transforming My Life Through the Application of What I Value
Personal story of four years of therapy and habit changes. Shows how aligning daily actions with core values led to improved mental health and relationships.