Redefining God
God is Dead. God is Love.
Guided Path
Follow the writing season by season. Pick up wherever you like.
Fall 2026
5 writings
- 51 min readUnread
Briefly, on the Tao
A quote in my morning coffee books told me that the further I search the less I know, so I went and checked the Chinese, found it was not quite Lao Tzu, and spent the rest of the day proving its point.
8 min readUnreadForging the 'Stronghand' Terminal — September 2026 Update
Sixteen months after building an elaborate Windows terminal, almost none of it is left. What sixteen months of actual usage revealed about this machine, and the small setup that survived.
8 min readUnreadCaptured, Not Pathetic
Pathetic is the easy judgment. The alpha fable is a captured idea.
15 min readUnreadI Didn't Start Cooking for Love
I didn't start cooking for love. A spreadsheet sent me to the kitchen; stacked hours, cast iron, and arroz con pollo are why I stayed.
7 min readUnread
Summer 2026
5 writings
What Phrases Did Your Dad Install On You?
I still hear the phrase my father gave me, and I do not know what my own phrase is doing to my kids.
11 min readUnreadEl Trickle Down Sí Llegó
Trickle-down did arrive—not as shared wealth, but as extractive conduct from boardrooms to kitchen tables. On rates, integrity, and being the floor.
13 min readUnreadPresenting Vastitas Omniparens
A twenty-year side quest to name everything, and the loot was already sitting in a Roman poem the whole time.
20 min readUnreadIf God Had Gentle Parented Us
What if God had knelt instead of exiling us? Genesis as a parenting story — and how that first answer still shapes how we punish and how we parent.
14 min readUnreadIt Isn't Too Much Pressure
On spending the whole summer with my kids while working remotely, why presence gets miscast as pressure, and how maturing as a parent removes that friction.
9 min readUnread
Spring 2026
5 writings
Happiness Is Moments
A reflection on happiness as moments rather than a permanent state: appreciation, rest, morning coffee, and a gratitude meditation at the end of the day.
2 min readUnread"Crimson Desert" Game Review
After 230 hours on PS5, Crimson Desert felt like a near-masterpiece: deep systems, unforgettable exploration, some repetitive quest structures, and a world worth living in.
40 min readUnreadThe Joy of Building My Own Digital Sandbox — April 2026 Update
Eight months, 550 commits, 26 new posts, and a full transformation of how I build this site — with AI pair-programming, spec-driven workflows, and the same stubborn love for artisanal code.
14 min readUnreadOn Leadership and Leadership-Adjacent Things, April 2026
Notes on leadership as cost, care, and teaching others to lead—from home to work to the wider world.
62 min readUnreadRolling Back Main (And Why You Shouldn't Have to)
Practical guide for solo developers who need to undo bad commits on main, followed by an honest reflection on why it happened and how to avoid it when vibecoding with AI tools.
24 min readUnread
Winter 2025
7 writings
The Feeling Is Not the Problem
Feelings are not instructions—they are information. On integration as the third option between suppression and indulgence, and why the space between feeling and action is where character lives.
9 min readUnreadNotes on Puerto Rico: Sin Pie Forzao'
A memoir-essay on Puerto Rico: economy, governance, and society—poverty, debt, healthcare, education, corruption—from a Boricua writing from the diaspora.
36 min readUnreadArithmetic
A bilingual poem on my love as presence across distance. Inspired by my children.
2 min readUnreadOn Boundaries, Miscalibration, and Relearning Unconditional Love
A simple reflection on setting boundaries, misusing emotional force, and relearning how to pair limits with steady love.
7 min readUnreadThe First Wall
A reflection on encountering biological limits in parenting and how absolute boundaries challenge beliefs about autonomy and capability.
5 min readUnreadThe Prometheus Problem
An examination of how AI companies position themselves as modern Prometheus while deploying systems implicated in teenager deaths, externalizing consequences, and operating as black boxes in critical infrastructure. This is not about future superintelligence, it's about what's happening right now.
29 min readUnreadOn Testing Relationships (Not Ok!!!)
Years of testing people without calling it that—playing dumb, going distant, poking, provoking. Making connection into a test is not ok.
5 min readUnread
Fall 2025
5 writings
On Clear Signals
Explores the energy cost of ambiguity and the body's response to mixed messages.
4 min readUnreadWhy I Turned Off Notifications Again
A morning realization about notifications, doom-scrolling, and choosing presence over feeds.
5 min readUnreadAn Invitation to the End of Wealth Worship — and the Beginning of a Human Future
A call to build a society where safety, dignity, and love are non-negotiable for all.
8 min readUnreadNovember 6, 2025 — Season of Becoming
A line in the sand. Moving from performing growth to living it, from articulation to embodiment, from insight to integration.
2 min readUnreadIntelligence Burns
On intelligence as heat: power without empathy burns. Choosing aim, restraint, and environments built for your temperature—responsibility over being right.
3 min readUnread
Summer 2025
12 writings
Empathy as a Shield
How empathy serves as protective armor against judgment, bias, and emotional spirals.
4 min readUnreadThe Rhythm of Grief - Summer Days and Letting Go
A reflection on the profound grief that accompanies co-parenting transitions, the deepening love that makes goodbyes harder, and finding strength through the rhythm of seasonal separation.
2 min readUnreadWhy Electric Cars Can't Look Like Electric Cars
EVs could be designed in wild new ways—but U.S. car safety laws written for gas cars keep them stuck in the past.
13 min readUnreadLove Is the Final Revolution
After nearly losing myself to global chaos, I found the most radical act isn't outrage — it's love. A reflection on politics, fear, and why building a home rooted in kindness may be the ultimate rebellion.
6 min readUnreadWho I Am Today: A Recovery Progress Report
Why I write, why I need systematic frameworks for basic human functions, and what recovery from narcissism and codependency actually looks like in practice.
5 min readUnreadGood Sheep
How we've been conditioned to love our own systematic exploitation - from theme parks to algorithmic playlists, we pay premium prices to be herded through corporate processing systems while calling it freedom.
31 min readUnreadBend, Don't Break: Learning to Flow Again
A personal essay about the psychological toll of extreme self-optimization, the breakdown of a 33-value system, and the path toward flexible strength through acceptance and presence.
14 min readUnreadThe Joy of Building My Own Digital Sandbox
Why I spend hundreds of hours building a custom blog when perfectly good solutions exist. Because this digital art project—code and content together—is how I view the world.
6 min readUnreadAn Hour of Hair Brushing: What My Daughter Taught Me About Time
Sometimes the most radical thing you can do is sit still with your daughter and brush her hair for an hour.
7 min readUnreadI Became What I Used to Mock
When an AI mirror shows you who you've become - a raw reflection on transformation, humility, and the unconscious arrogance of growth
7 min readUnreadThe Paradox of Modernity: Progress Without Peace
We are living in the most advanced moment in human history. And yet, we are also arguably the most confused, alienated, addicted, manipulated, and emotionally starved generation ever to exist. This is the paradox I cannot stop thinking about.
5 min readUnreadWhat Are We Even Calling Democracy Anymore?
A raw reflection on the state of democracy, the gap between rhetoric and reality, and the need for genuine systemic change.
1 min readUnread
Spring 2025
16 writings
🖼️ VS Code Title Bar Signaling System
A lightweight cognitive system to visually track project intent and mental context through color-coded VS Code title bars.
3 min readUnreadTotal Concentration Breathing (4-Second Intervals)
A rhythmic, box-style breathing technique used to cultivate focus, regulate the nervous system, and deepen mind-body awareness.
2 min readUnreadFasting from Dawn to Dusk: A Metabolic Ritual
A 10.5-hour intentional fast and the ritualistic, physiological, and psychological shifts it unlocks.
2 min readUnreadCustomizing ChatGPT: Crafting a Mirror, Not a Mirrorball
Approach to AI customization focused on integrity and reflection rather than productivity. Shows how to configure ChatGPT based on personal values for authentic self-expression.
3 min readUnreadThe Underrated Superfood: Why Beef Heart Should Be on Your Plate
Nutritional comparison of beef heart with common meats, showing its iron, B12, zinc, and CoQ10 content. Includes cooking methods and ways to add it to your diet.
4 min readUnreadDid the Illuminati Try to Recruit Me?
Someone slid into my Bluesky DMs claiming I was chosen. I answered like a god. Here's what really went down.
3 min readUnreadHow to Protect Our Children in the Digital Age: A Conscious Parent's Guide to Internet Safety
A clear, powerful guide for safeguarding the hearts and minds of toddlers and young children in today's online world.
4 min readUnreadWhy I Built builds.software — and What I’m Building Next
Built my own space: no ads, no feed, just soul + software. A digital forge for legacy, code, and craft. Welcome to builds.software.
2 min readUnreadWhat Happens When You Leave the Algorithm Behind
Leaving Meta. Reclaiming time, clarity, and creativity.
1 min readUnreadForging the 'Stronghand' Terminal: From Chaos to Command
Guide to building a development terminal on Windows 11 using WezTerm, PowerShell 7, Oh-My-Posh, and Zoxide. Includes setup steps and configuration examples.
4 min readUnreadMercy Through the Blade: The Silent Law of Leadership
On leadership as choosing hard truths over comfortable ones — why softening reality to spare feelings can do more harm than telling people what they need to hear.
6 min readUnreadPa’ la nena que vive en ti
Desde la paz, el respeto, y la crianza compartida
1 min readUnreadMy Mental Health Routine (Unfiltered)
A raw list of the practices keeping me mentally sharp after two weeks of rebuilding my nervous system from the ground up.
2 min readUnreadWho, really, raised me?
Which fictional characters shaped my values, from childhood cartoons to adult anime — and what Samurai X, Dragon Ball Z, Berserk, and especially One Punch Man's Saitama taught me about discipline, brotherhood, and the loneliness of mastery.
7 min readUnreadYou are Joking, Right?
Catching myself dismissing someone's feelings with "you are joking, right?" and what that pattern has cost.
4 min readUnreadIf Your Politics Obsess Over Control, You're Not Well
Analysis of how fear and trauma manifest in control-based political ideologies. Explores the relationship between personal insecurity and authoritarian policy positions.
4 min readUnread
Winter 2024
1 writing
Fall 2024
3 writings
On Simplicity and Peace of Mind
A reflection on finding contentment and wholeness through simplicity, minimalism, and inner peace rather than material possessions
4 min readUnreadOn the application of empathy and compassion
How learning empathy and compassion—first for myself, then for others—changed how I handle conflict and stop people-pleasing.
6 min readUnreadOn cooking… on everything… and foundations!
How learning cooking foundations—heat, ingredients, technique—taught me that foundations change everything else in life.
1 min readUnread
Summer 2024
8 writings
Sharpen Your Tools
Maintaining and honing your tools—physical, emotional, and spiritual—makes the rest of life smoother, safer, and more excellent.
2 min readUnreadBriefly on Empathy as a Double-Edged Sword
Discussion of empathy's challenges, including how sensitivity to suffering can lead to overwhelm. Explores the tension between compassion and self-preservation.
1 min readUnreadBrief Notes on Finding Serenity in Self-Control
Reflection on self-control as a path to serenity. Explores the balance between natural desires and conscious restraint in the context of personal values.
1 min readUnreadConquering Imposter Syndrome with Evidence-Based Journaling
Method for managing imposter syndrome through structured self-reflection. Shows how documenting professional achievements can build authentic confidence.
2 min readUnreadLearning is a Construction of the Self
Reflections on humility, personal growth, and the quiet lessons hidden in relationships, silence, and life's daily rituals.
2 min readUnreadMy Favorite Symbols of Power
A reflection on the symbols—mythic, fictional, and personal—that remind me of resilience, willpower, and transformation. These are the icons I'd etch into my skin if I ever choose to.
9 min readUnreadEmbracing the Spiritual Abyss: An Atheist's Search for Meaning
Exploration of atheism and secular humanism in the search for meaning. Examines the tension between rationality and emotional longing for spiritual connection.
4 min readUnreadThe inner work truly never ends.
An honest reflection on how inner work, therapy, and self-awareness are ongoing, messy, and humbling.
4 min readUnread
Spring 2024
14 writings
Note to Self: To Be or What Not to Be
A reminder that I become what I practice: negativity, resentment, and hate are choices I don't have to make.
1 min readUnreadThings I have learned this week regarding a 4-year old’s long curly hair
One does not brush curly hair because it becomes Mufasa-like. I tried different brush styles before I noticed this.
2 min readUnreadOn Feeling Overpowered
The daily practices that make me feel overpowered: training, cooking, sleep, presence with my kids, and choosing response over reaction.
3 min readUnreadSome Books for Self-Transcendence
A curated list of books that have helped me become a more conscious and powerful human being.
3 min readUnreadOn Limits, Growth, and the Meaning of My Life
A personal reflection on personal growth, self-discovery, and finding meaning in life through continuous learning and emotional development.
2 min readUnreadReflections From a Tough Weekend
A raw journal entry written to get through a painful weekend: notes to myself on loneliness, an emotionally abusive relationship, and staying kind while I heal.
3 min readUnreadNotes on Respect
How getting healthy changed the way people treat me, and what I've learned about respect, self-worth, and boundaries along the way.
4 min readUnreadNotes On Self-Control
A reflection on the power of self-control, curiosity, and value-based decision making in personal growth and emotional regulation.
3 min readUnreadNote to Self: On Being a Conscious Parent
A personal reflection on conscious parenting, modeling behaviors, and the importance of leading by example.
4 min readUnreadSome Notes on Overcoming Emotional Pain
A personal reflection on dealing with emotional pain, accountability, and personal growth through challenging times.
3 min readUnreadThe Definition and Practice of My Core Values Make Me Free
Only after defining my core values was I able to understand my morality and how truthful I was with myself.
1 min readUnreadTransforming My Life Through the Application of What I Value
Personal story of four years of therapy and habit changes. Shows how aligning daily actions with core values led to improved mental health and relationships.
18 min readUnreadWhy Creating a Life Statement Has Helped Me So Much
After my daughter was born, I noticed a gap between the "family first" man I thought I was and where my time actually went. Writing a personal mission statement is how I closed it.
4 min readUnreadOn Self-Discovery, Self-Awareness, Value-Based Living
Catching an intrusive negative thought, reviewing a month of memories to counter it, and a night alone at a concert that made me question why I was really there.
3 min readUnread